From Buffalo, NY

Well, finally managed to put a post from here.. A's away at work so i managed to find a little time to post tis from his computer.

Everything's great so far. I love the summer weather here. Sunny but yet cool and dry, not humid. Hadn't had a long vacation for a while and it feels good to be able to laze on the sidewalks cafes, jus enjoying the weather, doing nothing. A's bringing me to white water rafting and sky diving.. i cant wait! :)

I'm having a good time and no regrets tat i came on tis journey at all. A is very nice to me, he is jus so sweet and affectionate and romantic. I know he is trying to make extra effort to make tis whole trip memorable for me cos we both dunno wat wil become of tis relationship/ romance or whether it wil lasts beyond tis trip (tis ten days). We dunno where we'll go from here, everything is jus sorta hanging in the air, in stasis rite now. A is not intending to go back s'pore and in fact has no intention of settling down until he's 37 or 38. He doesnt pretend at any commitment, for which i'm glad. But i'm also wondering about how i'm gonna deal with my emotions when i'm back in S'pore.

Altho i have no regrets, i'm so afraid tat everything wil jus disappear after tis trip.. and it's like there is every possibility of tat happening! My odds for tis relationship is reali not good at all... i dun wana think about it... i'm scared... :(

For now, i jus wana concentrate on the happiness, sweetness and love.. dun wana think about anything..


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