Repercussions of the memories..painful....

Continuation of 27th Oct post...

Kept having flashbacks of the memories & conversations these few days, it just suddenly came to me without warning at all. It cld be waiting for the train or simply just walking along the premises of my workplace. Everything seemed so unreal now. And so ironic that it just felt like a stab at my heart at the tot of it. I could not even bear to think abt the conversations that we had shared.Now then I realised alot of things that din seemed logical previously began to fall into places. It's like "realization", sudden wake up...

There are so many occasions, I realised, that were awkward and uncomfortable or perhaps you had wanted to say something but stopped. I asked but never got the response. All those weird behaviors most prob stemmed from the anxiety to hide the truth or not knowing what to answer. I was too trusting and blind to see it or even pursue it. With an open-mind that I had, I tot the least respect that I deserved from this frenship was that you be truthful. But haiz, human minds are so hard to comprehen nowadays. There is never a guarantee that honesty will earn u the same back.

"Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward."

I guess I really need to learn how to let go before moving on...

hox 17